Me, my life.

GONE

2006-08-17T06:57:00.000-07:00

Well, not really gone, just back where I belong.
You can find me back at my old site of www.weightwatcherseh.blogspot.com.

I promise not to move again, come and say hi!

Anne

Rockstar Recap.

2006-08-09T10:36:00.000-07:00

Here's my my recap for this week.

Dilana - She was good, but I was expecting more. I didn't like the song arrangement, so maybe that was it. Did you see her face when they praised Lukas?! Her scheming blew up in her face.
Jill - I'll admit she is getting better, but I think as soon as Tommy sleeps with her, she'll be gone. Girl screams too much. (Botton 3)
Josh - I couldn't care less if he left. Dude forgot his lyrics! I guess playing with Tommy was just too much pressure.
Lukas - His troll face still hasn't grown on me, but I really liked him last night, I think he nailed the song (Encore)
Magni - Loved him last night. I liked his acoustic set and when he played with Goldmember (Zayra)
Patrice - Please put her out of her misery and send her home tonight. (Bottom 3)
Ryan - I loved him last night, I liked his entrance. He can do no wrong, he's hot.
Storm - As usual, I loved her, she looked really pretty last night. Do I think she's right to front the band? No, she should be on her own. I miss her freaky eyes too.
Toby - For once his performance was memorable. Too bad he pulled a JD Fortune by pulling out the blowhorn though. I liked him last night, when he talks he reminds me of Dominic Monaghan from Lost. Sigh, I miss Lost.
Zayra - Also known as Goldmember. She looked retarded last night, even though she can pull off an outfit like that. I still don't like her, she is entertaining in a Bjork kinda way but you have to admit she's not right for the band. (Bottom 3)

Goin for a walk

2006-08-09T07:44:00.000-07:00

So tonight after dinner and I grabbing my ipod and I'm going for a walk. I thought I should let you all know and now that it's out there I will have no choice but to do it ;) I HAVE to go. I don't want to be buying bigger pants come the fall, September is really just around the corner! I have a healthy lunch today and dinner will be a salad. I must say, I pretty much hate salads or any veggies, but I will make the effort to eat at least three salads a week for dinner. Totally doable since my husband like salads.

Rockstar recap coming at you this afternoon.
Have a good one.
Anne

Ouch

2006-08-08T10:10:00.000-07:00

This won't be a long post cause I am at home with a migraine and it hurts to look at the screen.
It's a real pain in the ass. I am so tired of being fat! I have been doing well with the eating but I am so tired of constantly thinking about food. It seiously exhausts me. You know how I know I am fat (or just really bloated, but I think it's fat)? Today i had to take off my engagement ring and only wear my wedding band. My finger was actually really sore. Lovely eh? So if that isn't incentive to lose it and up the water I don't know what is.

RockStar is tonight! I am really anxious to see what they have all chosen. For once I think that Lukas will do well with Creep. I love Radiohead. I still don't love Lukas though.

Have a good one.
Anne

buh bye

2006-08-07T07:15:00.000-07:00

Buh Bye. 1 pound gone. Still nowhere near goal but it's a start (again) and I'll take it. All this saying no to food that will stick TO MY ASS seems to be working. This weekend was good, we chilled with friends, watched a movie, went to see the house and did some furniture shopping. Why can't we just win the lottery and buy everything we want? lol

Sorry I don't really have all that much to say, I have a pile of shit on my desk and I am being the ultimate procrastinator.

Have a good one.
Anne

Tomorrow I promise to have a decent post. Or at the very least Wednesday after RockStar :)

Observations.

2006-08-04T09:46:00.000-07:00

Just a few random observations.

1) I thought I looked ok in this morning, until I saw myself in the elevator at work.
2) I WANT my period to start, I am tired of being bloated.
3) Work is super stressful and it makes me want to eat food that will stick TO MY ASS. I will just say no.
4) Even though I really miss my laptop, I am actually getting things done at home instead of watching TV with the laptop and waiting for a bloglines notification. (Yes, I am very aware, I have no life to some, but I do not have to be social to be happy)
5) I dream at night, not about how I will decorate our new house but where I will put my bookcases. Should I paint them? Should they go in the basement? This is important to me, I need to see my books.
6) My fascination with orchids is growing bigger, the one I got for my birthday is still alive and I am looking forward to getting some more. I can see this growing out of control.
7) Everyday I think about going for a walk, but don't.
8) I want to the look of my blog, but hate sitting at the PC.
9) I'm happy we went to visit my grandparents this week, you never know when they won't be in your life anymore.
10) Sorry if I haven't been commenting on your blogs too much, too busy at work (I guess I shouldn't be doing this at work in the first place) but things will be back to normal next week.

Have a good one.
Anne

What?

2006-08-03T11:56:00.000-07:00

Just a quick post - super busy at work, will write more later on tonight.

Rockstar Supernova - What was that?!!!!

*So later turned into tomorrow.. I'll just say that ok, Dana is gone, fine with me, but Lukas should have been in the bottom and he knows it. He would have redeemed himself though cause I will say he is better than Patrice.

Rockstar Recap

2006-08-02T09:21:00.000-07:00

So since I am really getting into it, here is my take on last night's show.

Dana - I think she is improving every week. She did really well last night, but I could care less if she went or stayed.
Dilana - She's awesome. Very consistent and if they choose a woman, it would be her.
Jill - Girl needs a pole in front of her, not a microphone
Josh - He did well last night, he was in his element. Not for the band though.
Lukas - Dislike him even more now. What's with walking back and forth and showing us the back of his head? Loser. I bet he felt intimidated after Ryan's performance and I think he forgot some lyrics! (bottom 3)
Magni - He's ok, just ok. I think he has more in him than we have seen. Hopefully he will do better with his family there.
Patrice - Don't love her, thought she was a tad masculine last night actually. (bottom 3)
Ryan - I love him on the piano last night, it was refreshing (Encore performance)
Storm - Loved it! She did so well with the new arrangement - She would get encore if she hadn't already had it last week.
Toby - I take him or leave him. I can't even remember what he sang last night.
Zayra - Not sure why she is still there as she will never make it, I have a feeling it's because of her lack or wardrobe. I like her style, but it's doesn't work for this band. Her arrangements can be shit too. (bottom3 - going home I say)

Have a great day!
Anne

Hello from hell on earth

2006-08-01T09:57:00.000-07:00

Ok, so it's not hell on earth, but with the humidex at 45°C (113 degrees Fahrenheit) it sure feels hotter than hell here today and we haven't yet reached our maximum temperature. Lovely, I guess this means another night of sleeping like poop. Is it as hot where you are? At least I work indoors and we have a small air conditioner in our living room, there are many worse off than we are.

This may be too much information but I think I need some new bras. As I was alone in the elevator staring at myself (What else am I to do for twelve floors?), I thought my boobs looked huge and they made me look a little bigger that I really am. I pulled on my straps to yank them up and wowzers! it was like instant weight loss! I looked slimmer and my top just fit better. Bra shopping is one of the things I hate doing the most, but I think I have to suck it up and invest in a good bra fitting, you know when the lady comes into the change room with you (ugh). Have you ever been properly fitted? The other thing I have a hard time with is spending the money on a good bra. I don't like spending $$ on something no one sees! Though I am sure my husband would disagree. Anywhoo, I know one thing, I have stop these puppies from being victims of gravity.

Have a good one.
Anne

P.S I am not loving this joint computer sharing thing we have going on at home. I always have to wait until his "people" take a bath or work enough to get shoes or something for him to pause his game for me. Yeah, I know you don't know what I am talking about. I look at him strangely too. He is playing Civilization. I so don't get it.

Have you seen my right arm?

2006-07-31T12:25:00.000-07:00

I feel as though my right arm has been cut off. This morning my husband had to return the laptop I have been using for three years. It's a laptop that was on loan from his work and he has changed jobs so off goes the laptop. I am seriously in mourning. We are both geeks, so we will now be fighting for the computer. He is always on it!, as I always had the laptop with me. Now we have to make schedules! lol Anyone have a spare to give a girl? (Just kidding, well, not really lol)

In food news, all is good so far. The mental image of an empty wallet and junk food going straight TO MY ASS seems to be doing the trick.

Have a great evening!
Anne

On track - For tomorrow ;)

2006-07-30T17:23:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow I start the bikini plan. I know, I know, I should have started today, but what can I say, I am a "Start Monday" kinda gal. So today when my husband suggested going out for breakfast I was all over it like a Paris Hilton on a man. It was soo good, eggs, sausage, potatoes and half a waffle with apples and cinnamon topped with creme anglaise. For dinner we had pizza, but it was home made so not at all greasy and gross, very healthy with veggies and chicken, not too much cheese. My plan for tomorrow is:

1) Every time I want junk, think about where it will end up. ON MY ASS is where it will end up, and do I want that? Hell no!
2) Think about money when I want to buy junk food. Do I want to use that money for our trip? Or do I want to spend it on something that will end up ON MY ASS?

Anyways, that's my plan. I may go back to Weight Watcher points at some point, but basically I know the right foods from the bad and only I can change my eating habits, so that's what I will do.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!
Anne

Yeehaw Motivation!

2006-07-29T20:18:00.000-07:00

Tonight we went to dinner at a friend's house where we talked about taking a trip to Mexico together this winter. It's not carved in stone yet, as we still have closing costs and some furniture to buy for the new house, but talk about motivation to lose the weight! I am exited! Even though it's not for sure I will work hard at it as if we already have our tickets. I WILL look good in a bathing suit.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend.
Anne

Ugh

2006-07-28T07:11:00.000-07:00

I firmly believe that if you look good, you feel good about yourself. Thanks to all of you who said Spanx or something similar actually work cause I will look into them, I need to feel good about myself. Lately I have been dressing pretty frumpily (Is that a word?) cause that is how I have been feeling, frumpy and fat. All my clothes are tight and they just look wrong on me and I have adapted that "I'm fat, fuck it, bring on the junk food" attitude. I am Stella and I really need to get my groove back. I am at my heaviest in ages and if I really am honest with myself I need to go up a pant size, but I REFUSE to do that. I really have to let go of the "everyone is eating it, I want it too" way of thinking. This summer so far has been really social and food is everywhere, before I know it, I am making bad choices. I look at food and gain weight! Doesn't help that I have pretty much quit smoking (I've had a couple of relapses) Anywhoo, I guess I am just venting and only I can get my groove back. How do you get yours back?

Anne

Spanx me baby!

2006-07-26T13:09:00.000-07:00

I crossed my fingers this morning as I tried on a dress I wanted to wear to the funeral we were attending this morning. The dress fit, but anyone could see it was tight on me :( I figured no one would really care what I looked like anyways and it was nothing a long sweater couldn't fix for later in air-conditioning land (work), so all was good. As I zipped up the dress and turned around in the mirror a million times I was cursing myself that I don't own a pair of Spanx or something of the sort. It just really wasn't good. I tried wearing the only pair of control top underwear I own, (they are ugly and I think I bought them to wear with my wedding dress) and they just made things worse! They cut into my thighs and you could visibly see where they dug into my waist. Not a pretty sight I tell you! So, I ask you, have any of you tried Spanx or a similar product? Do they really work?

Anne

Super Supernova?

2006-07-25T14:38:00.000-07:00

Not a whole lot to talk about today, eating is going well, trying not to snack too much. Work is busy, but at least we had a few breaks to look at the teepees today.lol Yes I said teepees, there is a protest outside our building and we watched the convoys of protesters come down the street this morning. As I was leaving, they were setting up seating, I think they are having a concert/party tonight. They will be there for a while...should be an interesting week, traffic is a mess. Here is an article about the protest if you are interested. If you already have your own teepess at work then don't read it ;)

Has anyone else gotten into RockStar yet this season? I am having a hard time with it this year, I just don't feel for the band or the contestants as much as I did last year when it was INXS. But I still watch it cause there is nothing on and I am a reality TV whore. I don't have a favorite yet, but I do know I don't like the Canadian guy (Lukas), I think he is soooo annoying and cocky. Unfortunately, it seems like the band likes him. Speaking of the band, I think their name is stupid.

Have a great night. Mine will be spent flippin' between RockStar and my boy George. - I need a life :)
Anne

Finds and admissions.

2006-07-24T07:04:00.000-07:00

I thought I would share my new mascara find with you. I always have such a hard time finding the perfect one, so when I found the Biotherm Open Eyes mascara last year I was thrilled. I wasn't thrilled about the price (about $18 CAN) but bought it anyways cause it's THAT good. I just ran out of my Open Eyes and well, I just can't seem to justify getting another one, so off to the drugstore I went and found Revlon Luxurious Lenghts mascara. I must say, I am really pleased, I like it almost as much and I saved some money, always a good thing.

I have an admission to make. I found a channel that plays Beverly Hills 90210!! So every Saturday and Sunday from 10-11 I sit down and watch my guitly pleasure. I used to watch this show religiously back in the day. I don't think it's all that now, but it brings back memories and I like to laugh at the bad acting and the bad clothes. I mean look at Kelly and Brenda's pants! Can they get any more high waisted?!! Too funny.

In weight loss news, I am not going to count points for a while and just aim to eat better. Lately I have been finding myself using my points to eat junk food. So starting today I will try to stay away from the shit food. It's all common sense isn't it? Wish me luck. So far this is what I am eating today.
cereal (Raisin Bran and milk)
cottage cheese
baby carrots
apple
cherries.
Not too shabby if I do say so myself.

Have a great day! Don't forget to drink your water, does a body good!
Anne

He's home :)

2006-07-22T17:09:00.000-07:00

I picked up M-A at the airport this morning. I will sleep well tonight, for some reason I slept like shit while he was gone, strange, cause this is the first time it happens! Usually I sleep better alone. Food, not so great today, I didn't count, let's just say that tomorrow and Monday I will not be using any flex pts. On the whole, not a whole lot to report, I finished reading 20 Times a Lady and it was really good and really funny, I totally recommend it if you are into chick lit.

I recently came across this site (wonderfulgraffiti.com) not to long ago. They have really neat ideas for stenciling sayings onto your walls. I think I might just might do something like this in the foyer of our new house. So I am looking for some kind of saying about friends, family and home ect, you know what I mean. I will also try and find the stencils here cause they aren't cheap and after the currency conversion and shipping to Canada it's stupid expensive. If all else fails, I guess I can always ship to my sister in-law in Atlanta.

Hope you are having a great weekend!
Anne

P.S Laura (Spiderlegz) - I would never thing you had a bad fashion sense. I've seen your pics and you look great! I wish I would have had a leader that looked like you!!

Ha!

2006-07-21T07:16:00.000-07:00

Scene from last night...keep in mind that my sister lives in an apartment directly beneath us.

Me (on phone): "Hey, want to come watch TransAmerica with me tomorrow night?" ( my hubby does not want to see this film)
Friend: "All of us?"
Me: "What do you mean all of us?"
Friend: "Well it's Friday"
Me: " Yeah, so"
Friend: "Aren't we going to your sister's?"

BUSTED!! I am celebrating my birthday with my friends tonight. My sister tells me it wasn't a surprise, she just forgot to invite me..lol I guess the plan was to invite me down when I got home and my friends would be there. I should have just played along and arrived super late from work!

In WeightWatchers news, there is a leader in Alberta that was fired for not complying with a dress code that requires her to wear a skirt and pantyhose, she has since been reinstated due to the media getting involved. Seriously we live in 2006! Who wears pantyhose? At least know why I thought the leaders I've seen had no fashion sense. Click here for the article.

Have a great day!
Anne

The bad grey

2006-07-20T08:22:00.000-07:00

You have your good greys, Jennifer Grey from Dirty Dancing and there's Grey's Anatomy. Then you have the bad grey. Grey hairs, on my head, the ones that weren't there on Sunday my last day being 29. Is this what being 30 means? More grey hair everyday?!
The other thing I've noticed this week is where my fat seems to be settling, it's settling in places it never did before, particularly my middle. What's up with that? Oh the joys of getting older.... I think I may have to much time on my hands to ponder these things. I am anxious for my husband to get back home.

Why am I ranting you ask? Why am I in a bad mood? Well it started this morning with me having to pick up garbage everywhere, a raccoon got into the can and garbage everywhere. I swear I nearly hurled. The smell of garbage, nasty. And just now I realized that I forgot to put my cottage cheese in the fridge, so it's been sitting on my desk for 3 hours :( There goes lunch.

I leave you with some cuteness. Check this site out, it's bound to put a smile on your face.

Have a great day.
Anne

breakfast pita 3 pts
Subway turkey wrap 7 pts
Baked Lays 2.5 pts
cheesecake 1 pt
Cadbury thin 2 pts
pork chop 3 pts
potatoes 3 pts
green beans 0 pts
salad 1 pt
chocolate 1 pt

1L water so far
23.5/22 pts
23 flex pts left

Why George, Why?

2006-07-19T07:12:00.000-07:00

As I channel surfed last night I was surprised to see George Stroumboulopoulos hosting what looked like a cheesy talent search show. On one hand I am happy to see that he is getting more exposure (If you are Canadian and don't know who he is, you don't deserve to call yourself Canadian ;) but on the other hand I am surprised about his choice of "summer job", I would have never imagined that hosting this sort of show would have appealed to him. I still like him better on the cbc, he looks more comfortable there, he seemed a little awkward last night. Anyhoo, I will probly tune in for the simple reason that I think he's a hottie.

On another note, I just wanted to say I hate wearing a thong, but a girl has got to wear what she has to wear when she's wearing a skirt.

Have a great day.
Anne

milk 1 pt
Raisin Bran 4 pts
sandwich 7 pts (guestimating)
All Bran bar 2 pts
Bellini 5 pts
bread 6 pts
brie and cream cheese 5 pts
salad 1 pt
brushcetta 0 pts

1.5L water so far
31/22 pts
25 flex pts left

Books

2006-07-18T08:40:00.000-07:00

Every year for my b-day I get gift certificates for Chapters, I love love love that store and could spend thousands of dollars in there. I have already spent one and pick up Swapping liv es by Jane Green and 20 Times a Lady by Karen Bosnak. I have been wanting to read some light books lately and I am sure these will do the trick. I have read books by both authors before. Here's where you come in. I still have another gift cert burning a hole in my purse, do you have any suggestions? I will read most anything, doesn't have to be chick lit.

So, with great reluctance I stepped on the scale this morning and had a HOLY FUCKING SHIT moment. The number settled at 156.5 but not before I saw a 157!. I haven't been to WW in ages, I think that if (yes, I said if cause I am soo embarrassed) I go back they will kick me out for slacking in such a major way. In all fairness, I deserve it, no one shoved the food down my throat. I deserve all of it. Starting today I am back on plan, I want to start my 30's off right, at least it will be easy, I am cooking for one, my husband is in Toronto until Sat.

Have a good one.
Anne

Breakfast pita 3 pts
soup 2 pts
Oreo thins 2 pts
donut (apparently it's still my b-day here at work) 5 pts
LC pizza 6 pts
cheesecake 1 pt
chocolate 2 pts
cookie 2 pts
23/22 pts
water 1L
34 flex pts left.

The Big 3-0

2006-07-17T06:02:00.000-07:00

It's official, I am 30. The only thing that feels different this morning is my weight. I ate SOOO much while on holiday it's not even funny. I know I won't fit into my pants tomorrow when I go back to work and I will not be surprised if someone asks me when I am due to give birth, I have gained that much. So tomorrow it's back on plan. I would start today, but let's be realistic, I am going out for lunch and tonight is my birthday dinner at my parent's house.

About this blog, I've started this new one cause I don't want my blog to be just about weight. Don't get me wrong, you will still be reading about my quest to lose weight, I just want to write about other things that interest me as well. I am tired of always thinking about weight and food so I am trying to be less obsessive about it. Funny how the first real post is about starts off talking about weight. Going to have to work on that, lol.

Will post some pics of the beautiful orchid from my husband. I LOVE orchids. I plan on making them my new hobby.I have a spot all picked out in our new house for them. The last time I had one, I killed it, so I am making it my mission to keep this one alive, then I will start my collection. Anyone have any orchid tips?

Have a great day!
Anne

P.S Thanks to those who have followed from my old blog. Don't be a stranger, feel free to comment!

1 hour, 25 minutes...

2006-07-16T19:18:00.000-07:00

In one hour and 25 minutes I will be 30 years old...Holy shit.

Thanks for stopping by, I will start regular posts tomorrow and in the next few days I will work on the new look.
Have a great night!
Anne